

slipping away...I carefully look around and stare deeply into the faces of those I tried for, some who will feel betrayed and others who will feel like they failed me. "I may betray them, but they were never failures," I reassure myself. Tonight will be my last with them. They don't see it yet, but I am dying inside. It is only a matter of time, but it will be easier for them to accept my expiration. I wonder how many of them have noticed how different I have become... the lack of hunger, the loss of weight, and most importantly, my behavior. I accept things as they are and don't think about the future. I have found an internal peace that only one of my natuslipping away...


Thoughts...The more I try, the less I feel That this life could possibly be realThoughts...
But I am reminded everyday By the loneliness that seems to stay
Everyday I sit and wonder As I listen to that defeaning thunder
Hoping they will pass me by Not wanting to hear another lie
What if I were to do it here and now Just end it and take my final bow
Will they even remember me? Or was I really never to be?
Now as I cry in the silence of night I think of the next possible fight
This one might be my last i fear As I hold my razor d


Replayed in a Sober DazeRemove the bullet from my head, extract the thoughts I took with led, write them down onto this paper, only to recite them laterReplayed in a Sober Daze
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Make this headache go away, Take this pill to end the pain I realize I've done everything to
--ruin us--
so, Please refrain from second guessing the things I do to stop digressing, in our minds we have eachother, and without that we have no other
-way-
to save ourselves.
love ya lotz!!
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I love life and life loves me. I'm as happy as can be. No one else happier exists. Excuse me now as I slit my wrists.
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"Life suckx, and you smell like chicken!"
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love ya
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